Chapter 1 - The Name on the ListRoll call was supposed to be boring.
That was the whole point of it.
Mr. Lawson was out sick, we had a substitute, and everyone in class was already mentally somewhere else. A few students were trading earbuds. Someone in the back was asleep with his hood pulled over his face. Marcus was drawing terrible cartoons in the margin of his history notebook.
I was thinking about soccer practice.
Then the substitute teacher read my name.
“Hayes… Connor.”
The way she said it made me look up.
She wasn't just checking attendance.
She was staring at the page.
Then she looked at me.
Her face changed.
Not confusion.
Not recognition.
Fear.
The attendance sheet trembled slightly in her hands.
“Here,” I said.
She didn't answer.
I raised my hand.
“That's me.”
The room went strangely quiet.
The teacher slowly stood.
She looked at me like she'd seen a dead man walk into her classroom.
Then she whispered:
“That’s impossible.”
Marcus stopped doodling.
The teacher swallowed.
Her eyes moved over my face, almost desperately, like she was comparing it to a memory buried somewhere terrible.
Then she said something that made every conversation in the room die instantly.
“You shouldn’t exist.”
Nobody laughed.
Nobody made a joke.
Even the kid sleeping in the back lifted his head.
My stomach tightened.
“What?”
The teacher dropped the attendance sheet.
It hit the desk with a slap.
She walked toward me.
“How old are you?”
“Seventeen.”
“When were you born?”
“March fourteenth, 2007.”
She went completely still.
“Say that again.”
“March fourteenth.”
“What hospital?”
I hesitated.
“St. Mary’s.”
Her face drained of color.
She backed into the whiteboard.
“No…”
I stared at her.
“What?”
She shook her head.
“No, no, no.”
Then she looked at the clock.
She seemed suddenly desperate to leave.
“I need to speak with the principal.”
She grabbed the attendance sheet and rushed out.
The door slammed behind her.
For several seconds, nobody moved.
Then Marcus whispered, “Dude…”
I couldn't answer.
Twenty minutes later, the intercom crackled.
“Connor Hayes, report to the main office immediately.”
Every head turned toward me.
Marcus grabbed my sleeve.
“Connor, what the hell did she find?”
“I don't know.”
But that wasn't completely true.
A tiny part of me already knew one thing.
My birthday had always been strange.
My parents never celebrated it at St. Mary’s.
They always avoided the subject of my birth.
And every year, my mother became visibly uncomfortable whenever someone asked about the night I was born.
I had never questioned it.
Until now.
I stood outside the principal’s office.
The secretary opened the door.
My parents were inside.
My mother was crying.
My father looked ten years older.
And the substitute teacher was sitting beside them.
She looked at me.
Then she whispered:
“Oh my God.”
The principal closed the door behind me.
“Connor,” he said, “sit down.”
I did.
Dr. Brennan folded her hands tightly.
“My name is Elizabeth Brennan.”
She looked at my mother.
“Eighteen years ago, I was an OB-GYN at St. Mary’s Hospital.”
My mother's eyes closed.
Dr. Brennan continued.
“I delivered a baby on March twelfth, 2007.”
I frowned.
“I was born March fourteenth.”
“I know.”
Her voice cracked.
“That’s the problem.”
My father leaned forward.
Dr. Brennan looked at all of us.
“The baby I delivered on March twelfth was stillborn.”
The room seemed to shrink around me.
“No.”
“I checked his heartbeat three times.”
She swallowed.
“There was nothing.”
My mother began sobbing.
Dr. Brennan whispered:
“I held him.”
Then she looked directly at me.
“I signed his death certificate.”
My blood turned cold.
The principal cleared his throat.
“There may have been an incident involving the hospital records from the time of your birth.”
My mother whispered:
“No…”
My father finally looked at me.
Not like a father looking at his son.
Like a man seeing a stranger sitting in front of him.
His voice barely came out.
“Then who are you?”
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Nobody answered.
And for the first time in my life, I asked myself the same question.
